Saturday, February 08, 2014

Enough moping, it's time to get back to writing

Okay, that’s enough moping around.  Time to bash the black dog’s head in with a shovel.  Who am I kidding, I doubt I could stop writing even if I had to.  I enjoy it too much and I’m not going to allow a spot of holier-than-thou bullying poison the satisfaction I get from writing these stories.  I’m probably worrying about nothing anyway.  One of the problems with writing horror is that the mind gets very good at spinning out a scenario and stringing together the worst combination of outcomes.  I doubt the person was credible and even if they were the most it would likely amount to is some awkward conversations with my workmates.

(Note: this is my situation.  For other writers of erotica the circumstances might be very different, which is why an attitude of “They should write under their own name so we know who they are” is the mark of an ignorant asshole.)

I’ve had a week to think things over and I’m going to make a few minor changes.  I let myself drift a little too close to the world of “serious” writing.  My personal opinion is those online communities are toxic.  They’re highly politicized and if – like me – you don’t fit rigidly within a political ideology you get a clubbing from whichever side you get too close to.  I don’t think they’re healthy for budding writers either as they’re stultifying environments detrimental to creativity.

(Some might be reading this and thinking:  Hey, that doesn’t sound like the warm and friendly community I know.

Well bully for you.  Your face fit, someone taught you the secret handshake, or you found an entry point manned by the many decent people I hope don’t feel as if I’m tarring them with the same brush.

Unfortunately I saw a lot of unpleasant sneering assholes, took one too many brickbats to the face and decided I was better off staying right the fuck out of it all.)

“Serious” writing appears to have forgotten the contract between writer and reader and become obsessed on the things that are only ever proxies to this contract between writer and reader.  If you write something and even if only ten people read it and enjoy it, congratulations, you have still increased the overall happiness of the world.  Do not let anyone else try to tell you otherwise.  Only the worst kind of person tries to dictate to everyone else what their fantasies should be.

And hrarghhullll.

That’s another sticky black hateball I had to get off my chest.  I hope I’m not going to make a habit of this, otherwise I’ll have to stick a note on the blog – “It has been 7 days since Many-Eyed Hydra’s last online meltdown.”

Plus I assume you’re all here for the sexy succubus action, not a bunch of whiny ranting from someone who should be old enough and wise enough to know better.

The tl;dr version – Fuck the snobs and holier-than-thou bullies, I’m not going to stop writing the stories I enjoy writing.

To show I am most emphatically not done with this writing lark and as a thank you I’ll post one of the stories I have saved for the next collection.  There’s even going to be a choice:

Busted Bankster: A city trader is drawn into a deadly cage fight with a succubus and is smothered by her large breasts.

A Special Tube of Lube: A work-at-home software developer is given a sensual ‘4 hands’ massage by two busty students that ends up with them demonstrating a very special tube of lube.

A Real Life Goo Girl: A researcher studying an unusual slime girl brought back from H-space is trapped in the lab with her when she escapes.

Pick the one that most takes your fancy and let me know in the comments.  I’ll post the one with the most votes tomorrow.

(don’t pick the one I haven’t finished editing yet . . . don’t pick the one I haven’t finished editing yet . . .)

Thank you all for your messages of support and I'm sorry for being stupid enough to allow myself to get distracted from what's important - supplying the world with sexy succubus smut.  Next week normal service should be resumed.  I’ll wrap up the walkthrough of Violated Hero 4 and after that I have some reviews of some other monster girl hentai games I’ve played recently.

And of course I'll keep scribbling away on new stories/chapters, it's what I enjoy doing.

Monday, February 03, 2014

So a writer at The Guardian threatened to dox me today...

Doxing, if you're unaware, is the process of posting personal information about someone, effectively revealing the real life person behind the online pseudonym.

This is a fairly nasty threat against anyone who writes explicitly about sex.  By and large we live in more enlightened times, but they're not that much more enlightened.  People are still highly judgmental about matters of sex.  Writers of erotica write under pseudonyms with good reason!  They don't want their enjoyable and harmless online hobby causing potential problems in their real lives.  There are school teachers and other similar professions that use writing on places like Literotica as an escape valve.  If the nature of their hobby became exposed it could cause them considerable difficulties in their careers.  For people with the misfortune of living in more repressive regimes, being unmasked could have far more serious repercussions.

I'm fortunate that I'm not in that situation, at least I think so.  Which is the problem.  Maybe my employers would be cool with what I write, maybe they wouldn't.  Maybe my friends would mostly remain my friends, or maybe they'd spend all day squinting at me sideways as if I was an alien.  That's the problem with these things, no one can really tell.  Which is why the majority of erotica writers choose to use pseudonyms.  It's safer that way.

I don't know if the threat was serious.  It was a heated discussion.  I and others were hurt and offended by the article and let the author know.  When the red mist rises cross words are typed.  The threat might not have been any more credible than the average twitter death threat.

But...

As much as I dislike bowing down to holier-than-thou thuggery, there are real life risks and consequences.  I have a family and a career.  The fear of a threat like that starts to eat away.  Was it serious?  Were they bluffing?  If they weren't and my real name leaked into the public domain what then?  Will I lose my job and then have difficulty finding future employment?  It's easy for the mind to prey on worse case scenarios.  This is a fun hobby I enjoy a great deal, but it is a hobby and I have to weigh it up against a career that puts food on the table and pays the bills.

I'm sorry to the people coming here in expectation of fun fantasy stuff.  I'm going to have to take a pause and think on this.  I love what I do, but I also love my real life job and I can't take a chance on jeopardising that.

I really loathe bullies, always have.

Sunday, February 02, 2014

Let's Play Violated Hero 4! part 17

Are we at the end?  I think we’re almost at the end of the Violated Hero 4 walkthrough.  I don’t think it’s going to get any lighter on the squicky sex stuff, so you might want to leave now if you’ve navigated here by mistake and are revolted by such stuff.

This is where I try and figure out what order to piece together the remaining content.  Looking at the the CG Mode and Replay libraries, we’re missing five scenes.



The last one is presumably the Good End.  I’m guessing the other four are some combination of Lilith/Sharia Bad Ends.

This is where I break from liveish blogging while I figure out which order to present things.

Okay, let’s go all the way to the “Good End” first.

Thankfully Lilith does not seem that much of an impenetrable brick wall.  Unless she has a further “one-wing angel” stage I reckon I was about one super potion away from defeating her.  I suspect I might have received a little fortune from the random number gods to get her HP that low, so I think I’ll pick up a couple of extra super potions on top just to be on the safe side.  I’m also missing some of the encounters from earlier levels, so this seems like a good excuse to fill them in as well.

A spot of grinding and then it’s back to take on demon god Lilith.  This time around the random number gods aren’t so kind, but I wasn’t expecting them to be so I made sure I had a few extra potions just in case.

Now, was that the final-final battle?  Are we going to get our happy-happy joy-joy harem ending?

Come back next . . .

Just kidding!

Lilith falls over.  Luka-clone has done it.  He has saved the human world.

Well actually not, as Lilith points out.  She correctly observes that Luka-clone didn’t defeat anyone; it was the monster girls in his party.  It was monster girl on monster girl and none of the bosses were actually killed either, so their numbers have not decreased.  Also, all those sexy monster girls in his party were only contracted until he’d defeated the demon god . . .

Uh oh . . .

And now that the demon god (in this case Lilith) has been defeated the contracts are up.  The monster girls are free to do as they wish.  Is this a good time to point out Luka-clone is at the same location as all of them.

Big uh oh . . .

I sense a pile-on in Luka-clone’s future.

Oh, Lilith decides to abandon her world of “pleasure of chaos”, so it’s not all bad.

The way the devil kings talk about “training” Luka-clone, bad.

Alas poor Luka-clone.  You thought you won and . . .


Dogpile on the wimpy masochist!

Well at least his winning prize is to be drawn more like a heroic adventurer and–

Good grief!

—how long is that!  No wonder the monster girls were all so keen to keep him around as a toy.

It’s a bit of smoochy-smoochy with Selene while Makina and Anua lick his nipples, and Sharia and Lilith play with . . . that anatomic anomaly.  It doesn’t look so bad Luka-clone.  Five gorgeous girls, jammy bastard and all that.

Um, Sharia’s just sucked up your cock in her wing tentacle thing.  Okay, so it looks a little weird, but it’s not all that . . .

Oh, and Lilith’s just put her tentacles in your ass.


Spurt spurt.

I think the Violated Hero artist really likes drawing cum splatters.

Think on the bright side Luka-clone.  While they’re molesting you they aren’t bothering other human beings.  Think of the greater good.

Oh, Lilith’s tentacle is swelling up.  In your ass.

Greater good, Luka-clone.  Greater good.

And fade to black.  The end.

In the MEHydra vs VH4 battle I have this five-on-one scene from near the end of Succubus Summoning 101 (please buy the book, Verdé will give you nice dreams if you do).  As lovely as Verdé and friends are, I’m going to give VH4 extra style points for the wing/tentacle/suction tube thing.

Overall, the last Good End looked remarkably similar to the many preceding Bad Ends.  Maybe that’s just how Violated Hero rolls.

But we do still have those missing CGs from Sharia.  Is there an alternative – better – Good End hiding away?  To be continued . . .

Friday, January 31, 2014

Let's Play Violated Hero 4! part 16

The walkthrough of Violated Hero 4 moves onto the final area (we think).  And the usual warning – Violated Hero 4 is a sexually explicit eroge.  Please read no further if offended by such things.

First a little recap.  We beat Sharia, Lilith stole the powers of the demon god and then flew off to take her position as final boss of the last area.  Oh and there was no Bad End unlocked because I suck.  Or maybe Sharia’s idea of a sexy Bad End is to stamp on people’s heads and cast them down into the torments of hell.

Sharia, you’re one sick chick.

At least she’s on our team now as our intrepid ambulatory bag of concentrated semen heads off to the final-maybe-final battle.


Hmm.  Two wandering mook types this time around, or maybe another stats boost monster.


Into the final-maybe-final castle.


Didn’t I see you before . . . ?


Hmm, these scythe chicks are pretty hard.  She nearly kills me on her lonesome.  Thankfully I level up straight after, which saves me having to dip into my limited potion supply (just 2 super potions and no normal potions – the grind beckons.  sigh).

Okay fess up, VH4.  You sent the level designer home early.


And then it’s time to confront Lilith in her lair.


Luka-clone steps up and says he’s going to stop her.

How?  By making her sides split open from laughing too hard.

Lilith warns him of the consequences.  If he loses she’s going to fuck him to death or make him her pet . . . or something like that.  Oh well, some you win . . . and some you win.

It’s not all bad for our intrepid hero.  Former demon god Sharia is here to lend her power.


I don’t think it’s going to go down as expected.  I remember the title screen.  I see chains and much trampling of genitals in Luka-clone’s future.

The three demon king generals are keen to give Lilith a good spanking as well.


As I said earlier: Some you win . . . and some you win.

And then it’s time to battle.


Not sure I’m keen on the Lilith design with the single power eye and magical tail emanations all over the place.  Only 1500 HP, but I only have two super potions left.  Throwing the fight may not be necessary.

As Lilith is now the demon god she also gains the annoying demon god ability of pausing the battle for more posturing/monologuing.


She also heals herself to full as well.  That 1500 HP . . . it’s more like 3000.

Oddly, Lilith’s sex attack isn’t animated.  She asks if she kiss him there and then the spunk heart lights up with no indication of what Lilith was actually doing.  (I can take a good guess).  Even after all four light up I’m none the wiser to what’s going on.  Did the makers forget to add the last animations?  I still think the sex attacks are a wasted opportunity.  They don’t even KO us when the 4th spunk heart lights up.  No matter our current HP, it never drops below 1 from that attack.

Using the last super potion refills my stats and a couple more Sharia hits drops Lilith to the 2nd pause.  Uh oh, and after that pause Lilith’s HP is up to 2000.  With mine at 175 and no health potions left the tedious potion grind beckons.

The random number gods tease me with a sequence of Lilith missing or doing scratch damage and I get her down to about a quarter life before one of her killer moves finally connects.  One super potion short.  Which is a good sign as it means I won’t need to do too much grinding for potions.

And then . . .

Finally . . .

It’s time to be squeezed by Lilith’s intimate bits.


The first intimate bits appear to be Lilith’s rather sizable fun pillows.  As with Hisui – not seeing the Bad End of this.  Lilith gives him a good suck and tells him he’s going to be her personal semen doll.  So nothing’s changed there then.

And then for scene two it’s . . .


Missionary?  I suppose that is the exotic position in VH-world.

The scale is also a little weird.  At least Luka-clone doesn’t look like a chubby little child in this rendering, but the size difference between him and Lilith is a little odd.  Maybe monster girl means size amazonian+ in this setting.

Missionary doesn’t stay missionary for very long as Lilith takes her tail and – you guessed it – shoves it in our ass.  She sort of likes Luka-clone as she tells him to abandon his silly quest to save all humans and be her pleasure slave instead.

When you put it like that . . .

To seal the deal Luka-clone has to fill her uterus with cum.  He does that and still manages to make her look like the main event in a bukkake picture.  I can only assume the ambulatory bag of concentrated semen burst at some point.

Then it’s fade to black.  Not because Luka-clone is dead or being digested or drained, but because Lilith wants him to sleep and dream pleasant dreams of her.

Wait, we did lose that fight, didn’t we?

Then it’s the some time after cutaway.  Lilith beats up Sharia again.  Under Lilith the world has gone to pleasure and chaos with monster girls slurping up humans everywhere.  I think we all know who’s to blame for this little disaster.  Should have stayed at home, Luka-clone.

Lilith gloats over smashing even the gods and then heads down to the basement where . . .


Ooh.

You might have fucked up the entire world, Luka-clone, but it was worth it.

And much squeezing by Lilith’s intimate bits was carried out.  (and we’ll try to pretend those tail tentacles stretching Luka-clone’s intestinal walls aren’t really there)

And they all lived happily ever after.

The En—

What, you want the other CGIs.

Sigh.  Okay okay, I’ll see if I can unlock Luka-clone’s happy-happy, joy-joy harem ending next time.

Oh, the MEHydra vs VH4 round.  It’s a succubus, I’m pretty sure I have this one locked up.  Here’s a tag team of Nÿte and Physalia in case you have any doubts.

I’m not sure what the next post will be.  It’ll either be the Good End or maybe I’ll save that until last and see if I can figure out how to fill in the missing Bad Ends first.

Wednesday, January 29, 2014

Let's Play Violated Hero 4! part 15

And now we’re getting into the end straight of my walkthrough of Violated Hero 4.  Do I still need to put out warnings on potentially squicky sexual content?

Last off was a little bit of a disappointment as we reached the end of Lilith’s area only to find out she wasn’t interested in a fight.  Don’t worry, I’ll go back and pick up her Bad Ends after completing the first run.

Now it’s time to move onto the penultimate area and Sharia.

I should probably point out at this moment that I’ve never actually properly completed a Violated Hero game.  In the first something went screwy with the game mechanics as it froze up on the fight with the Dragon Girl.  In VH2 I couldn’t be bothered to go grinding for all the extra potions I needed after Xueli flattened me over and over.  And in VH3 I made my character so stupidly lop-sided I couldn’t even scratch one of the magic-attack resistant bosses.

This is not a good sign.  We might never see the happy happy joy joy harem ending and this could all be left open ended like a US sci-fi series cancelled on a cliff-hanger series ending (I fucking hate it when they do that.  At least Joss Whedon had the decency to give each of his Buffy series a tied-up finale just in case the series wasn’t renewed.  Unfortunately the TV channel execs grew wise to him and started cancelling mid-season instead.)

With that warning out of the way it’s time to plough into the “malevolent deity’s” castle.


Ooh a change of music and scenery.


And we’re fighting Gina. (genie?)


The fight ends up being messy as most of my harem’s attacks are dodged and I lose half my HP.  Not wanting to waste all my potions on annoying wandering mook fights I take the potion that seems to eliminate random encounters.

As it’s the last level it’s probably going to be long and complex and . . .



Oh.

The level-designer coffee break strikes again.

And we’re at the throne room.


Sharia is waiting.


She mentions no human has challenged her in centuries.  She also notices Lilith hanging around and calls her out.  Lilith shows she means business by revealing some hidden power.


I still have the feeling Luka-clone is completely superfluous to this succession battle.  Sharia tries to intimidate him with her magic force, but it ain’t doing.  Because it’s time for the not-so final battle.


Oh, only 1500 HP.  We have super potions.  I reckon we can take this.

And yeah, it’s never just a final battle as Sharia pauses things halfway through.

And obviously she’s going to go all evolved, or One-Winged Angel, or . . .


. . . stay exactly the same with her HP back up to full.  That feels a little cheaty.

I knock her down to about 300 HP before there’s another pause.

Now Sharia’s really mad.  She’s going to get serious.

Nope, no weird transformations.  Still a demon girl with wings.  Even though she’s back up to full health again.

It doesn’t matter.  I keep bashing away with Lilith and this time there are no pauses before Sharia hits zero HP.

But obviously we don’t want to see the consequences of winning the battle just yet.  Time to save and then load the earlier save.  How will Luka-clone fare against the malevolent deity on his own?

Badly, obviously.

(5 damage)

As it’s the total shame loss we don’t even get a sexy Bad End.  Sharia tosses us into the pits of hell and Luka-clone is tortured for decades.


As with VH2, we’ll have to work a bit to earn our sexy Bad End at the hands of the not-so-final boss.

Losing after the first pause gets the bad Bad End again.  It looks like Sharia really wants us to work for our sexy.

And after the second pause . . .


Head stamped on.  Dozens and dozens of years of torture.  Plain End scene.

Do you even do sex, Sharia?

Guess it’s back to the saved game where we won and the inevitable twist where it turned out we didn’t win.

Oh we did win.  But then Lilith, who’s been running the whole coup all this time, steals Sharia’s power to become the new demon/god overlord.


The other devil kings look on in horror as Lilith claims the throne.  She was fed up with Sharia’s world as it was too well-organised and boring.  She wants a bit of chaos.  She wants to raise hell.  The world is going to burn, yadda yadda.

Not yet.  One man steps up . . .

Unfortunately it’s our faithful ambulatory bag of concentrated semen.  Lilith, tremble in your high heels.

Actually dude, I think she’s giggling.

Lilith buggers off to another castle and challenges Luka-clone to go after her.  I guess she still wants to play with her pet.

It’s not all bad as de-powered Sharia wants to sign up for the Lilith lynch mob.

Actually it is all bad.  Where the fuck is our sexy Bad End?  There wasn't one in the last post.  If I don’t put up any hardcore pics of smut this time around I'm the one that's going to get lynched.

I go back to my save game and try knocking her down to various life totals.

Head stamped on.  Dozens and dozens of years of torture . . .

Okay, what if we don’t raise a finger against her at all.

Head stamped on.  Dozens and dozens of years . . .

Sharia, you do like men don’t you?

Oh well.  I’m assuming there must be some trigger condition for her sexy Bad Ends I failed to trigger.  Another for the NG+.

Next time can we get some sexy pulleeze Violated Hero (totally claiming these rounds as MEHydra’s, BTW)?

Actually, I had a peek ahead.  We’re good.

Come back in a couple of days where we definitely, absolutely and finally will get squeezed by Lilith’s intimate bits.  Guaranteed.

Monday, January 27, 2014

Let's Play Violated Hero 4! part 14

This is part 14 of my walkthrough of Monster Girl eroge Violated Hero 4.  The usual warnings apply.  If you’re under 18 or have stumbled here by mistake and are revolted by the thought of tentacles in the ass, please turn around and show yourselves to the exit.

Last time around we took down the 3rd of the devil kings, the tentacular Neptune Queen Selene.  That leaves just one devil king remaining and this is going to be a little awkward as she’s been following us around as a member of the party all this time.

Yes, it’s finally time to get squeezed by Lilith’s intimate bits.

First there’s the matter of recruiting Selene, which should be easy given the agreement she had with Lilith.  Oh, she wants a rematch - this time a one-on-one “dirty” match with Luka-clone.  By dirty she means hentai sex battle.

Hmm, I’m intrigued.  Maybe . . .

Lilith isn’t.  There’s a “malevolent deity” to battle.

Selene switches to serious mode and tells Luka-clone they don’t have a chance of beating Sharia.  She wonders what Lilith is up to.

Afterwards Lilith mentions the powers might have aligned to give them a chance.

And then it’s over to Sharia in the castle, who’s just noticed it’s gone quiet.  Oh dear, it sounds like her and Lilith cooked this up just to have a fun fight.


Back to the map screen and, hello, another arrow has appeared.


This opens up a third screen, this time with just two areas, one of which appears locked.


This first is obviously Sharia’s, but what about the second?  Does Violated Hero 4 have a secret enemy kept close to their chest, or is that the area the player needs to complete to get the happy happy joy joy harem ending?

Before that we need to do Lilith’s area to recruit Lilith, who is already in the party anyway . . .

Ah, the third element of the dragonkin – ice.


Halfway through I realise I forgot to finish off Selene’s area.  It doesn’t matter.  I’m going to have to go grinding for super potions anyway.  I follow the path to the exclamation mark at the end and . . .


There’s no one home.

Well, we knew that anyway.  She’s already in the party.

Uh oh.  I have that ‘done things in the wrong order’ feeling.  Lilith mentions it is her area, and she might have enjoyed springing that surprise on us, but now the cat’s out of the bag it doesn’t seem worth it.


So no fight.

Which means no Bad End.

Hmm, looks like we’re going to have to wait a little longer before being squeezed by Lilith’s intimate bits.

Nothing for it but to 100% the areas visited so far.  While going through Lilith’s area I get careless and frozen solid by one of the dragonnewts.  I hit the continue option and then hit what I think is the status button to see if my level is still the same.  And . . .


You know that feeling when you play through most of a game without realising you’d missed something really obvious.

Amu is in this game!!!?

Amu was one of the generals in VH2.  I’d heard a rumour she was in VH4, but as the same people seemed to be saying she follows you around, I assumed they’d mixed her up with Lilith.  But no, she’s in the game and running some sort of potion store.  I’m not sure how this works being that I have no money and don’t know what any of the potions do anyway.

The first option gives me a super potion.  The second gives me 3 super potions.  That seems quite convenient given that they seem essential for the harder boss fights and Sharia is guaranteed to be a brick wall.

On the way out Amu knocks us out and then gives us a footjob after we wake up.  All part of the service.


And I guess that’s it for this segment.

Does this mean we don’t get to be squeezed by Lilith’s intimate bits?

Nope, guess not.

Bugger.

Oh well, onto Sharia and an inevitable sticky end.

Sunday, January 26, 2014

The Clitorides Awards

A link to the Clitorides awards appeared on the Literotica front page today.  It's a set of awards for the most popular erotic fiction found on free websites.  Any story from 2013 is eligible and they have multiple different categories (including Erotic Horror).  There are no prizes apart from bragging rights, but if it's popular I imagine the winning authors/stories will pick up some new readers.

If anyone feels like nominating any of my stories, here's a list of the new stories I put out on free websites in 2013:

Jackson in HRPG-World 2: Exploding Kiwis in the Nether Regions
Jackson in HRPG-World 3: A Sticky Starting Scrap
Jackson in HRPG-World 4: Bubble Bother (hmm, that reminds me.  I still need to put this up on Literotica)
Snared, Sucked and Slurped
Streetwalking with a Succubus
Succubus Summoning 203
Succubus Summoning 204
Succubus Summoning 205
Succubus Summoning 206
Succubus Summoning 207
Trent the Traitor

If you enjoyed any of these feel free to go and give them a nomination.  Likewise, if you have another favourite writer you feel deserves some recognition, go give them a nomination.